Loss. (Hiatus Announcement)
Hiya. Hiatus announcement time where I type way more than I should’ve but here I am anyways, copy and pasting this from my notes—
I’m not going to go into great detail publicly about what’s going on (as I feel that would be disrespectful and inappropriate), but I’m pretty open about topics such as these (especially on here) due to how much of a role such issues have played in my own life— and as long as it’s addressed maturely, I feel it’s okay.
So, in summary, my sister commit suicide on Saturday, and I, my parents, and my brothers are dealing with the grief and havoc of it all.
I need to be there for my father and my brothers, but I also need to try and comprehend this type of stuff too. There’s a lot of emotional things to sort through, but there’s also other things to sort through that are going to displace me from my schedules and work for awhile. I’m more emotionally and physically drained than I’ve been in years.
Knowing myself, my activity won’t be completely dead (so calling this a semi-hiatus would be more fitting, but I was already on one of those), but the only thing to expect for quite awhile is comic updates. I’m not gonna push myself to do anything, so anyone worried about that (you know who you are)— no worries
I never feel good when I don’t make at least some sort of announcement of a break— which is a me thing— so yeah. This should help put part of my mind at ease. Sorry this is kinda long.
Semi-hiatus announcement
HI I’ve been thinking about whether to actually make this or not and there is a 50:50 chance I might delete this not long after making this, but here we go-
Semi-hiatus time!
And, for me, that means I just won’t be that active and I won’t draw much. Maybe a drawing or two I already started, but other than that, I’ll just work on my comic. I genuinely care about my comic and want to work on it, so that’s why. Even then the updates might be slow.
Also, maybe this’ll explain to some of mis amigos who I haven’t talked to much at all recently as to why that is haha-
I’ve had quite a few sleepless nights where I’ve had to genuinely contemplate whether my brother was even going to live after he gets sent to the ER. It’s a genuinely perplexing situation, and nothing about what’s happening looks good. The doctors don’t even know what to do. This has been going on since September or October, so the emotional distress has literally been eating at me for a few months. I don’t want to lose my brother.
There’s more stuff that I’m not gonna bother going into, but that’s basically one of the main things?? I haven’t talked about that situation much so that was kind of just a small vent. I’m basically left feeling helpless and useless due to a lot of things happening, and boy oh boy my mother is unintentionally making me feel so much worse recently.
Overall I’m just exhausted and not sure what to do. I just hope things’ll get better soon, but until then, my motivation is in the GUTTERS
Motivatedtale (info journal)
.:Contents:.
.:Summary/Idea:.
.:Characters:.
Motive
Unmotivated
.:Stray Facts:.
FAQ
Comic Help
.:Inspiration:.
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.:Summary/Idea:.
“Have you ever wondered what happens to creations when a creator gives up?”
Motivatedtale is essentially an abandoned AU with no finished story or a plot. Which, ironically, not having a story is the story itself. It’s a tale about how the lack of motivation (along with other things like self doubt) in a creator leaves a story unfinished, and with no reason to exist, no story, the AU is crumbling into nothingness, as it is being forgotten and has no reason to exist. However, there’s two characters in it that have to deal with that burden of having no ending or reasons to exist. And they’re completely aware of what’s going on.
At least, the first one that was created is aware, because they were made to be that way. They inform the other one (Frisk/Motive) about all of this when they meet. They’re a Sans of course (which is sort of a self aware joke because a lot of people either start with the Sans of an AU when creating characters, subtly revolve around a Sans of an AU in a story, or the entire story literally and shamelessly revolves around a Sans. This is not an attack on anyone). This Sans goes by Unmotivated, and is quite bitter about existing.
These characters have no finished story, no destiny, no purpose. Being self aware of this can be a great burden on hope and happiness; ignorance is bliss, after all.
What the AU would’ve been if it was “completed” is unsure.
How the story ends is not fully decided or meant to be disclosed (for now), but even if this AU is finished or not, it is already technically complete. It symbolizes a project that is given up on; a project that is abandoned, and what would happen if the characters in these types of projects were conscious about this. So, if this AU is abandoned, it’ll be quite ironic.
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.:Characters:.
Motive
Motive is the Frisk of this AU, and one of only two characters that are in this AU. Motive was created after Unmotivated, but the coloring of their design was given up on towards the very end. Their sweater is unfinished because the creator gave up on them due to being overwhelmed with empty and destructive thoughts, but the outline/shape is still there. The sleeve usually is never shaded/effected by light.
Motive is an optimist, and believes that their AU will one day be finished. They have the soul of motivation, which is outwardly visible and tied to the loose hanging strap of their overalls. They have no confirmed gender, so calling them by any pronoun is fine (she/he/they/it..really doesn’t matter, honestly).
Motive acts impulsively a lot of times and does not think of the consequences of their actions...or, they do, but they choose to move forward with their actions anyways. Since optimism is one of their key traits and it’s exaggerated and simplified in their character and logic, it can result in some bad outcomes. The same goes for their impulsitivity. They’re not that serious natured, and act more like a child than a young adult (despite being 18). However, they do make a lot of (sometimes unnerving) jokes that could be considered uncomfortable, but they mean no harm.
Since Motive is technically a new character and was not fully developed by their Creator (backstory, powers, etc), their underdevelopment as a character is their development as a character. Confusing, but will be explained later. Doesn't mean it isn't up for interpretation though.
(More is to be added later)
Unmotivated
The Sans of the AU, and the first ever character created (which again is poking fun of the idea that people usually start with the Sans of the AU for characters). Unmotivated is bitter towards his existence and his Creator, and is completely aware of the multiverse and AU Creators. A big fourth wall breaker. He’s apathetic, bored and often paints himself as emotionless and uncaring to hide any hurt/feelings of helplessness. He bottled them away a long time ago.
At first, Unmotivated was hopeful about his AU, but he was alone for an unspecified but long amount of time in his AU, and was driven to toxicity during that time. He’s overall a lonely character. When or why he got the nickname “Unmotivated” is unclear. He hates the name but finds it funny and ironic at the same time.
Unmotivated’s soul is held by a string that is woven into his rain coat. He considers this to be poor design choice but doesn’t really do anything to fix it. He
sometimes keeps his soul in his pocket for safekeeping (still rarely does though).
(More is to be added later)
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.:Stray Facts:.
• The AU resets (sort of like an update) each time a new idea is added. This is how Unmotivated is generally aware of Motive when they’re created.
• The “Creator” resembles anyone who has abandoned or given up on their projects or ideas. This isn’t meant to put people that do this in a negative light.
•The white of Motive’s sleeve isn’t meant to be shaded since it’s “incomplete.”
FAQ
(most are from amino since not many people ask here)
What was the AU supposed to originally be before it was abandoned?
This is undecided and left up for interpretation. However, based off of the design of the current characters, it can be safely assumed that the AU was supposed to be more lighthearted and cutesy. There are random bits and ideas spread throughout the AU that give glimpses to what it could’ve been.
Can I draw fanart of these characters?
Of course! I’d be honored to receive fanart and would love to see it! Just please keep things appropriate if you do. Can I do a dub or a translation of this comic?
Absolutely!! Though please do note me first to talk more in depth (mainly about crediting and where you can post!). I have gotten several offers for translations, but as of right now no one has gotten back to me. Any active/posted translations I will link here (if blank text boxes are needed then I can help as well).
Is Ink Sans or Core Frisk going to be in the comic?
No.
I’ve gotten asked this several times, and the answer is no. Doing this would completely ruin the theme and point I’m trying to get across with this comic. This story revolves around a Creator and their Creations, and there will be no other characters made by other people.
Are Motive and Unmotivated shipped together?/Is this a Frans AU?
nO.
It’s fine as a joke but please realize they aren’t. This isn’t an AU centered around romance and would distract from the goal of the comic if I had that.
How often do you plan on updating the comic?
Each page is published whenever I finish it nowadays due to stress of a schedule. I post them in bulks of 3 on amino, whenever I finish the page on deviantart.
Is the Creator a character?
Yes, and no. The Creator represents not only myself, but any artist that has struggles putting their creations out there due to insecurities or other causes. They’re more symbolic and fluent rather than a structured and identified character. Of course though, if there is any introduction of the Creator, I would have to give them some sort of design. They’re a blank representation.
What does Unmotivated think about other AUs/Sanses?
Unmotivated has an apathetic mindset when it comes to AUs and other characters like him. He’s incredibly self aware and sees a much bigger picture. He knows characters are just pawns to their creator, and won’t get fazed by any story. Sort of like watching actors in a movie while constantly reminding yourself that they’re just actors. However, he is quite envious of anyone with a complete and happy storyline, since that’s something he lacks but yearns the most. That’s something he wish he had.
Keep in mind Unmotivated and Motive cannot interact or travel outside of their AU, and no one can interact with their AU except the editor/creator.
Comic Help
Adding this here for now since it’s not for every page, but these people do often help me review pages or come up with ideas. Literally none of these people are really on deviantart so linking to their aminos and tumblrs are the best option.
Photo
casually-being-photo.tumblr.co…
aminoapps.com/p/7jv0yn
They tend to help out with reviewing sketches of pages and pointing out any noticeable flaws. Also super encouraging person that’s helped calm my anxiety about the comic several times.
ttwelve catss
ttwelve-catss.tumblr.com/
aminoapps.com/p/6eh7ri
They’ve been helping me the longest and points out any mistakes mercilessly tbh. Sometimes but rarely helps with dialogue phrases, and with onomatopoeias. Also helped revise a few panels in some pages to make them better, so big thanks to them.
Intel
loopyliddrawsbullshit.tumblr.c…
aminoapps.com/p/prk7of
Helps a lot with plot ideas and comic ideas in general. They’ve also been a key factor in developing Unmotivated’s character/personality and what he is/is going to be like in the comic. Probably going to help out with facial expressions later on too.
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.:Inspiration:.
Alright, this part is going to be a lot less formal and more personal. The idea for this AU came from my own self doubt and self destructive attitude as a creator. Doubting my own works and ideas has seriously held me back for a long time, and it STILL holds me back as I’m sure it has for many, MANY other creators like me. Musicians, artists, writers.. Almost all of us have that fear of trying out a new idea or making something you usually wouldn’t. Almost all of us have felt that crushing self doubt when you see someone better than you, and you tell yourself you’ll never be like them, your art will never be that great, you’ll never get that far...so on, so on.
So, while I was trying to come up with an idea for an AU (which I had actually been considering for well over a year), the thoughts crept in.
“no one will like this”
“there’s enough AU’s”
“you’re unoriginal”
“this is a waste of time”
“the fandom is dying”
“you have horrible character designs”
“AU’s are overrated”
“this doesn’t fit your audience”
“people will judge you”
“you never finish anything”
“this is stupid”
“your art isn’t good enough”
“you’re not good enough”
“someone probably already came up with this idea”
“no one cares about your idea”
“no one would bother with your art”
And ironically, all these thoughts gave me this idea.
Even so, these thoughts have still been nagging me every time I even try to work on this, and it’s been taking a lot of courage to take on the heap of anxiety I have over something so harmless. I didn’t join the Undertale fandom for over a year simply because I was afraid of being judged for my interests,, fun fact. Never thought I’d be able to make an AU. I’m still quite nervous posting art of anything that isn’t Mario related for some reason.
Putting all this to side though, I find the concept of what happens to unfinished and/or abandoned stories and projects interesting, especially if there’s an alternate reality that’s actually effected by your decisions. Kinda like you’re a god. I mean, imagine what it would be like if you had a creator and they just gave up on you, and you’re left with no purpose. Seems like it would suck, haha.
So that’s basically my AU, Motivatedtale. If you have any thoughts or questions, I’d love to hear them. Thanks for reading if you did!
Point Commissions! (Closed~)
I’m not sure anymore
Actually
Its been months since this was last open
Saving up points to commission other people
Spots:
1.) ~closed~
2.) ~closed~
3.) ~closed~
There’s a chance I may accept more than just 3, but if I do please understand if it takes me awhile to complete them all.
I will do:
•Most animals (though please understand if I have trouble with some)
•Anthros
•OCs/FCs
•Super Mario
•MLP
•Splatoon
•Pokemon
•PPG
•Undertale/Undertale AUs (Skeletons, temmies, etc)
•Sonic
•Five Night at Freddy's
•BATIM
•Shippings (canonxOC, canonxcanon, OCxOC, LGBT+, etc)
•Most fandoms
•Some gore
Won't do:
•Fetishes of any kind (including foot, tickling, shivering, etc, I will know)
•Porn
•Vore
•Heavy gore
•Hate art
•Loud House
•Incest
•Machinary
•Very specific drawings (please leave wiggle room, it's stressful otherwise!! Those types of commissions aren't my speciality)
•Reference-less characters
•Overly complicated characters/poses
Ask about:
•Humans (this only applies for heavily shaded commissions, which does not include cell shaded or comic shaded. Do also keep in mind that I’m not as great with humans so it might not be as great of an outcome)
•Armor
(Will be collecting examples, some examples are also outdated!! Best to look at gallery to get an idea of what you would be receiving)
*Prices will probably change a bit. Sorry for raising and lowering the prices so much, just seeing what works for me and others
Options:
•Misc/Specials:
-Shoulder-up Flat color
65
Example(s):
(Least expensive, most likely to get done the day commissioned. They're also fun and I enjoy them!)
-Shoulder-up Shaded (comic style)
105
Example(s):
-Stained Glass Bust
300
Example(s):
-Transparent Sticker
225
185
for each additional character (2 Characters Max)
Example(s):
•Half body:
-Flat color
100
85
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (comic style)
200
175
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (cell) Style
260
245
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (detailed/complicated)
1000
600
for each additional character(Two characters max)
Example(s):
(Note: There is a higher chance I might refund this one if I can't get something right. This one is so "expensive" due to the fact it can take 6-12 hours to make one of these)
Simple backgrounds are free. Please specify if you don't want a background, it won't effect the final cost.
•Full body:
-Flat color
300
175
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (comic style)
420
380
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (cell) Style
500
400
for each additional characterExample(s):
-Shaded (detailed/complicated)
1730
(One character only)
Example(s):
Simple backgrounds are free. Please specify if you don't want a background, it won't effect the final cost.
If you have a specific type of background in mind, please ask about it first. I’m most likely not going to do too complicated backgrounds.
Requirments, rules, good to know:
•A clean digital color palette/reference of the character(s) you'd like (PLEASE link pictures instead of just describing it)
•If I'm unable to complete your commission I will refund you all of your points
•I’ve got a life, and I can’t predict when your commission will be done, but it shouldn’t be too long.
•If I've already started then you can't demand a refund/change things
•Points first unless I know you pretty well
•I can refuse to take your commission, which either means I won't respond and will probably hide your comment later on
•If you want me to post your finished commission on any of the following social media, tell me which one(s) and your account tag.
-Tumblr
Sometimes I might put a piece on those if I’m really happy with the result (with credit of course), but if you don’t like that, just ask for me to remove it. I’ll specify if I did so after I finished the piece.
Finished commissions:
Comment (or note me if you'd feel more comfortable that way!!) if you'd like to commission me!
Rest In Peace
2015-2017
For those who didn't see that deviation before I deleted it, Skittles was very sick when I woke up this morning. I tried everything I could think of, and I did a lot of research. (A little sad here for the rest of this paragraph, so just a small warning) I finally just said my goodbyes after taking him out of his cage one last time to try and see if he'll eat, and I put him back in as gently as I could after seeing there wasn't much else I could do. He collapsed on his side..and he stopped breathing a few hours after. I'm emotionally and mentally drained right now. I'm terrible with animal deaths. Always had a soft spot.
I did the best I could to make sure this didn't happen so soon...but I guess I failed.
So..
Thought I'd just make a little thing of (almost) all the pictures I published of him
Oldest to newest
<3